Tuesday, October 7, 2014

Passion And Heart

Day 7 in the Write 31 Days challenge. Click here to learn more and to see other 31 Day posts.
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        Sometimes I worry what people think to much. For some reason, its like whenever I do something that I pour out my passion and heart into, I hear these voices in my head saying negative things. Or I "think" i know what other people are thinking around me. Or when those people do speak out and say something, it hurts me to my inner core. All these things just make me slink back into my little hole and not do the things I feel passionate about and not take risks. I'm afraid of what people might say or think of me. I don't want them to think I'm awful or crazy. I don't want to displease them. So I just hide. Staying in my normal realm of things and not stepping out. 

         I think I've become to comfortable in my little hole. Not stepping out into the light, following my passions, or pouring out my heart into whatever I'm doing at the time. I think my insecurities, fears, and people-pleasing feeling have gotten the best of me. You see, I absolutely love to sing. When I'm alone and when no one can hear me, I sing out loud. As loud as my tiny voice can go (if you know me, I have a very soft voice from the start), but when I'm around people, I freeze up, and when I try to sing I can hardly make any noise. Let alone stay in the right key. I'm afraid I'll mess up or not be good enough for someone. I'm being right up front and honest here with you. I have this problem of hiding in a hole and not coming out. 

         I'm determined to change this though. I've been in my hole way to long. Jesus says that we don't have to worry about what other people think of us. We only have to live to please Him and Him only. When I remember this, it gives me so much freedom because I remember that I don't have to be afraid or worried. I don't have to please people any more. Whatever people's comments are I can just shake it of (Taylor Swift reference intended there ;)) and look to Jesus to get approval. Because He is the only one worth getting approval from. It is still going to be hard though. I've been in this hole for years now. It has become the norm for me. It is going to take some time to get out and stay out of it. But with Jesus, I can do anything. I can become free. I can pour out my passion with out the feeling of judgment. 

        Have you ever dug a hole for you self because your afraid what people might think or say when you pour your heart out? If you have, I'm encouraging you to come out into the light with me. Lets be Christ followers who are not afraid of what people might say or think. Lets not be afraid of failure or let downs. Lets be people who are free in Christ. Together. 

"But we speak the Good News because God tested us and trusted us to do it. When we speak, we are not trying to please people, but God, who tested our hearts."
1 Thessalonians 2:4

"I can do all things through Christ, because He gives me strength."
Philippians 4:13

1 comment:

  1. I've definitely struggled with this in the past as well... mainly hiding my light in public. I know He's ashamed of me when i'm ashamed of Him though so i've been trying to work on that, but still, like you said, it's gonna take some time...